This. Is. The. Time.

In one of my favorite posts to date, Imagine That, I wrote about what the world would look like if we all began praying like we meant it.

Really, how different would it look?!

But, recently, about the last two months or so, I have been apathetic about, well, everything.
It isn’t until more recently that there has been a change: dreams awoken, faith renewed, heart rested.

And, with last week’s youth revival at our church (I’ll have to do a post about that in the near future), and the series our youth pastor is doing, I’ve been challenged again:
what could my life be if I really got settled into an active prayer life?

I feel as if there are some big things missing from my life (feel free to explore this blog to read about that…it’s all over the place here). And I have been doing so much to stay faithful, but I still find myself in trial & hard time after trial & hard time.

Then I ask God, Why? Haven’t I been faithful? then, I find myself slipping out of faithfulness…

But, the fact is, God never promised we would have hard times. Ever.

“I have told you these things, so that you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But, take heart! I have overcome the world.” – John 16:33

I have written before about the flip-side of faith; that if we take God at His word for our good times, we Have to respect His word that we will also face trials. If He is untrue in this, then He is not God.

So, as we were going through revival & our service last Wednesday night, I felt God’s pull on my heart to read through the book of Daniel again. And, let me tell you, Daniel was a faithful man who had trouble.

But, right there in chapter one, we see God’s favor with Daniel because of Daniel’s faithfulness to God’s law.

Then, the fact is that because of Daniel’s, Hananiah’s, Mishael’s and Azariah’s faithfulness, they found themselves in huge hard times – trial by fire & thrown in a lion’s den. But, God got them through this & then brought His name greater glory.

See, God does not spare us hard times because of faithfulness; but He gets us through the hard times because of faithfulness (ours and His), bringing Himself more glory.

In fact, it is more a reflection of God’s faithfulness than our own. As we see in Joel, when He restores a broken & unfaithful Israel. His love never left, and His promise to His people was great:


God promised to restore what had been lost, what had been broken.

So often, I feel lost, broken. As if I am not somewhere important I should have been. I get complacent and apathetic, fearing that God has all but forgotten me & my dreams.

He has yet to do that, though. Even in my times of unfaithfulness, God is always faithful.

And, I fully believe His word. He is restoring what has been lost. He has been doing so for a while now. Some days, I just miss it.
He is bringing restoration I never knew possible, and I trust Him to continue to do so. I believe that as I continue to return to Him in faithfulness, He will continue to make good on His word.

I believe I will see lives around me changed.
I believe I will see my own life changed.
I believe I will see beauty restored in this world & in my relationships.
I believe people around me will realize the power of His faithfulness, and all that I have been through will be for His glory.
I believe I will even see a change begin in my clients & at work.

This week has really reminded me that I can’t wait for others to pray where God is leading me to pray, and I can’t expect 5 minutes a day to be enough.

It’s time for a revival in this country, in this world; and I am on the frontline with many others.

This. Is. The. Time.

Is there something God has placed on your heart to pray for? A situation in your life, a person you know, a dream you have? I encourage you to begin really seeking God’s will in that area, following His prompting to spend time in prayer about that. If you want me to add it to my prayer list, feel free to share below or email me. I’m in prayer for everyone who reads this blog that God would begin a frontline revival in each of our hearts.

“Does he love Jesus?”

Always my first question when:

  1. A Christian friend says she met someone.
  2. Someone offers to set me up (which is basically never)

What surprises me is when even fellow Christians tell me that I place too much emphasis on this, or expect too much in this area.


2 Corinthians 6:14 tells me not to be yoked to an unbeliever. Actually, even someone not on the same level as me. What’s more? This passage is actually about avoiding idolatry. How quickly what we choose to link to can become idolatry – leading us away from God’s purpose.

I know based on human nature, I’m at risk for putting my “him” above God. So, I definitely need a “him” who is completely committed to the Kingdom of Heaven, who will steer me back in that direction.

I believe life is best lived for Christ. So, I can’t have someone who doesn’t understand that part of my life – the biggest part of my life.

To hear other believers tell me I’m expecting “too much” or have too much emphasis on this, it’s disheartening. It saddens me greatly to know that they feel that there are so few of us, and that it’s too great of an expectation in todays world.

Because, I really feel we can all expect it, and should celebrate it when we find it.

A partner who is passionate about the Will of God is a beautiful thing. And, being equally yoked is the only way to really make it work. Otherwise, it becomes a huge hurdle for everyone involved.

Do I have to have someone who likes country music, reading, and rainy weather? Probably not. These qualities would be a bonus, but not a necessity for a happy life.

Do I have to have a man dedicated to Christ? ABSOLUTELY. Because, it’s the biggest part of my life. Faith & ministry; I can’t not share those things.

You see, I’d rather serve God alone and single, than try to serve God alone in a relationship.

Do I want to be a wife and a mom? Yes. With the depths of my heart I do.

But, I trust that my Abba knows this. So, I trust He is helping me become the best wife & mom I can be one day –
To one of His sons, a like-minded man who is equally prepared & prayed up (maybe even more so).

The question: “does he/she love Jesus?” should never be an obsolete question when discussing relationships – it should be the most important.

So, does he love Jesus? 
If the answer is no, or maybe, or I don’t know, then, move along. I’m not the one.
If the answer is yes; then, may God guide you rightly.

Do you think it is expecting too much to expect someone dedicated to Christ? Let me know your thoughts below. 

If you, like me, are waiting for a God-loving man or woman, let me know below. I will add you to my prayer list & we can encourage one another. And, as we wait, enjoy this post just for my future “him” 🙂

How I Met…

You know, I’m not sure that meet-cutes happen much anymore.

You know the stories:

Boy meets girl: eyes meet across the room; they both reach for the same apple; they bump into each other on the sidewalk; and the list goes on. Then, they fall in love. #SoulMates

No, I just don’t know how often that happens, those cute stories. And I don’t know how many people are actually choosing mates that are right for them, because they are jumping into things. And, I don’t know how realistic the possibilities of those fairy tale endings are…

But, I do believe in the power of prayer, and beautiful, God written love stories.

See, I pray for my “him” – whoever he is, wherever he is, and whenever God decides to bring him into my life. However God decides to bring him.

So, I will be pleased with our meeting story (online, in person, whatever), because I have prayed for it, fasted for it, & had strong faith in God’s plan, purpose, & timing.

And, when that time comes, I will be glad to share that story!

The Flip Side of Faith

Today has been a day…and not a good one…

I feel like everything is just against me today: time, others, the enemy…

A universal conspiracy to ruin my life at the young, young age of 28…

Then, how selfish am I that I think the universe would have a vendetta against me?

Well, that’s what anxiety does to you. It has an answer for everything, a worst-case-scenario response to every little thing that goes wrong in life:

Paper work issue with the state? You’ll never get your business off the ground.
Client issue at work handled ethically, legally, and appropriate for work environment? Somehow, this is going to blow up at you & you’ll lose everything now and forever!
Heater out or check engine light on in your car? This is going to cost you thousands of dollars you don’t have & you’re going to end up not having a way to work, lose your job, and be poor forever.
Feeling a little ill? You’re dying. You won’t make it through this, it’s probably cancer…
See, this is what anxiety does. So, maybe it doesn’t always go that extreme, but sometimes it absolutely does. And, with an anxiety disorder affecting about 18% of the US adult population (NAMI), I know I am not alone.

Sometimes, people turn it into a question of my faith…Maybe it’s not strong enough, or I don’t believe enough.

But, here’s the thing, I’m going to argue, that, just maybe, it’s stronger than imagined.

I read an article today with “verses to get you through a hard week”, and each one was about God’s protection, provision, hand on His people.

I absolutely believe my God loves His people, that Christ died for my sins on the cross, and that I can live an abundant life in Christ, as His word says…

But, there’s a flip side to faith.
And, If I am going to believe in a Loving God, I have to believe in a righteous God, one who seeks His glory in all things. I have to believe in a God who:

Turned Adam & Eve from the garden after the fall.
Destroyed the world with a flood.
Asked Abraham to sacrifice Isaac (yes, here, he provided a way out).
Allowed Jacob to be the cause of strife between two sisters & allowed Leah to be unloved for the entirety of her marriage.
Allowed Joseph to be sold, enslaved, and then jailed for at least 2 years.
His anger burned against Moses & He hardened Pharaoh’s heart.
Let the Israelites wander the desert for 40 years.
Let Hannah weep for many years.
Let Samson be destroyed in destroying his enemies.
Let His nation be split before finally being exiled.
Allowed Daniel to be thrown in a lion’s den & Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego to be thrown into the fire.
Job was stripped of everything. Every.Single.Thing. (Approved by God, carried out by the enemy)

This is also the God I serve. He let his people go through these things.

Did He bring honor and glory in each situation? Absolutely.
Did He ever leave those who he called? Absolutely not.

“Your examples are all from the Old Testament, though”, you may say.

Ok, how about: Let his disciples be tormented, hunted, & executed?

Christ told us that we would have troubles in the world. He didn’t sugar coat it or pretend to only be a God of happy prosperity 24/7:

“I have told you these things so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But, take heart! I have overcome the world” – John 16:33

You see, I know what this verse says. I know that it follows up a conversation with Jesus and His Disciples about pain & joy. He knew they were experiencing anxiety in that moment. And, He told them the best truth He could: your peace is in me, and even in the troubling times, you can have peace in me. Because, there will be troubling times.

As for those troubling times coming to an end while we’re still on earth?
Death. It’s still a thing.
False Accusations. Still happen.
Good people losing everything, finding their life in ruin. This happens too.

Unfortunately, even God’s people can experience trial after trial.

So, my experience of anxiety does not point to a lack of faith, but a momentary, overwhelming remembrance of the identity of the God I serve.

It’s also an opportunity to express my faith greatly. That, even when the anxiety wants to take over, I still praise. I still worship. I still trust. I. Still. Believe.

Not for my own sake, but for His Glory, regardless of the outcome for me.

I’ve Grown Weary

The sky was dark, as with every morning.

Panic. I’m going to be late!

My eyes shoot open. Thinking it’s Monday, I’m ready to shoot out of bed at 6:15.

Then I remember, it’s Sunday. And, I have two more glorious hours of sleep.

Snag in the plan, though, I slept through my alarm.

Apparently, the sleep is needed this weekend.

You see, at the end of a long week, I’ve grown weary. And, I suppose, recently, weary in general.

But, I managed to roll out of bed and get to Sunday School, and what a day to go. A day when we were discussing Hosea – a beautiful reflection of how God really works – a God that is in the business of pursuing.

You see, I want to say I identify with Hosea, but more often than not, I fear I am more of an Israel (or Gomer, as it were).
Easily tempted by the trappings of this world.
Often finding myself in my own selfish pursuits.
Overruled by desire.

And, I’ve grown weary.

I’ve grown weary of seeing brokenness around day in and out.
I’ve grown weary of not turning to my Abba as I should.
I’ve grown weary of not being where I thought I’d be, even if I’m where God has placed me.
I’ve grown weary of being surrounded by the temptations & trappings of the world.
I’ve grown weary of finding myself in my own selfish pursuits.
I’ve grown weary of being overruled by the desires of the lights of the world.
I’ve grown weary of holding on to my own brokenness and sin, instead of turning from them to the arms of God,

But, I have hope.

I have hope that God is in pursuit, always.

I have hope, that like he did with the people of Israel, He still pursues His people.

Hope that He knows where our choices today will lead tomorrow, and He still steps in to try to get us where He wants us.

As He told the people of Israel through Hosea:

“I will betroth you to me forever;
I will betroth you in righteousness and justice,
in love and compassion.
I will betroth you in faithfulness,
and you will acknowledge the Lord.”
– Hosea 2:19-20

Even with all of their turning to their own prosperity, their own desires, their own sins, God still opened Himself up for them.

He did this for Humanity with His son. Christ is that redemption.

And, in Christ, I find my hope:

I have hope that though I’m not where I thought I’d be, I am where God has led me.
I have hope that, despite the brokenness around, Humanity, as a whole, will still come through for one another.
I have hope that, even though I have my own brokenness, I can turn it over to my Abba; and that I learn to do so more and more each day.
I have hope that God will provide a way out when tempted by the trappings of this world – I need only be open.
I have hope that my salvation is secure in Christ – and I cling to that hope each day.

And so, even though I have grown weary, I will rest in Him. And, I will continue to work each day to be more like Hosea and less like Gomer.

This week, I am joining in with Kate over at Heading Home for 5 Minute Friday. This week’s prompt is Weary.