Why Tiny?

So, I’ve talked before about my dream to live in a tiny house and travel to do youth ministry. 

I have gone through several stages of what/how/when, all the important questions. But, I know a lot of people wonder about the why…

So, why tiny?

Because there is so much, too much

Too much beauty out there not to experience.
Too many attractions not to see.
Too many amazing people and places to visit & meet.
Too much love out there to stay in one place.

Also, too much pain to only stay and help in one spot
Too much brokenness to only touch one area.

Too many dreams in my heart.
Too many thoughts in my head.
Too many experiences I want to have & places I want to explore.

That’s why tiny.

And, I have BIG news on the Tiny House front…coming soon to a new blog dedicated just to that adventure. I can’t wait to share it with you all!

#Someday

Last night, I went to a wedding…alone.

I’ve gone to all of the weddings I’ve been to in my adult life alone – I mean, I had a date to one, but he got stuck in traffic, and didn’t get there until the end. I was so nervous for him knowing how much he hated traffic that I didn’t really eat. So, we went to a late dinner after…

So, yeah, every wedding, alone.

And, I love it each time.

There is a sense of “crap, I really am alone” each time they announce the dances for married couples.

But, for the most part, I’m surround by loved ones, celebrating love & beauty, and being able to create memories with the important people in my life.

Honestly, I want that day (maybe not as elaborately as most others), but I want that day to celebrate with my him, to say, “now & forever”.

A stunning example of God’s love for us, that’s what I hope our relationship represents…

But, the only way that will happen is if we are preparing ourselves in advance, covering one another in prayer, and seeking God first in all we do.

I don’t know if I believe in “the one”, but I do believe in praying for “the one I will choose & who chooses me back”. And, I believe in becoming the one he is waiting & praying for, preparing myself, covering him in prayer, and seeking God in all I do.

Now, I know I do that…and I pray he is also doing that. Because, that way, I know our love story will be so beautiful it can only be orchestrated by the Creator of the Universe.

So, until that day, I will continue to muse: #Someday

Gratitude

First off…I’m really doing poorly at following the prompts for the 5 minutes free writes…But, I guess, that’s making me a pretty good rogue…I’ll probably reference today’s prompt later…so, look out for the words “post-it” 🙂

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Tonight, I have been thinking a lot about encouragement & gratitude. I find, if you are thankful, it’s also really easy to be encouraging.

So, I’m writing a few “thank-you”s & encouraging notes for some people I know…and in doing so, I find myself more encouraged, also.

The world holds so much ugly tragedy, sometimes we need to take a few special minutes to dwell on the good things around us, the good done for us, and the good we can do for others.

From this dollar store pack of cards I will get 8 notes: 8 ways to connect to someone, to lift their spirits, to say thank you, to affirm them.

But, it doesn’t have to be a card, you can encourage someone through: a comment on social media, a silly Snapchat picture, a post-it on their desk, a dry-erase message on a board or mirror.

Or, a good, old fashioned, in person complement. Remember those?

As for lifting your own spirits? May I recommend a GTL? What my friend called a “Good Things List”, but I call it “Got to Love”… List out things you’re grateful for…because being thankful is what really encourages us.

That spirit of thanks that will soon be all around us is often so fleeting, but it is one of the best spirits the world can have.

…but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace that passes all understanding, will guard your heart and minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable – if anything is excellent or praiseworthy – think about such things.” – Philippians 4:6-8

So, encourage someone today. Write a GTL.

Spread a little love. For others & yourself.

Stewardship…or something

As I have started to think about my dreams – my Tiny House & traveling youth ministry…a PhD & a plot of Pacific Northwest land – I have been going back, back to the dreams that started it all…

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And, I have been thinking forward, forward to what the future may hold.

In high school, I had visions of a youth ministry/program. Running groups for teen moms. Teaching young adults about taking care of themselves & the world around them. Giving a safe place. Providing groups for the depressed & anxious, lonely & alone.

Without being a teen mom myself. Before I knew what sustainable living was. Having no idea of the extent of social media or the means/location God would send me, God still awakened these dreams in my heart.

Yet, I don’t know that I have been a very good example in my own life of these ways of living. ..

“Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore, honor God with your bodies.” – 1 Cor. 6:19-20

“God blessed them and said to them, “Be fruitful and multiply; fill the earth and subdue it; have dominion over the fish of the sea, over the birds of the air, and over every living thing that moves on the earth.” – Genesis 1:28

When I read these passages, I am reminded: my body & this earth are not my own. I am meant to be a steward of them, and take care of them.

However, as I have been reflecting on these old dreams, and my life up to now, I am not sure I have done my best to take care of either…

I do have a goal to live a more sustainable life, to live in a manner of being a better steward of what God has given me. I want to be able to teach that to others.

But, up til now,  I really don’t think I can say I have done my best here.

Struggling with depression for ten years, and a continuing struggle with anxiety, kind of left me depleted of some of my natural resources.

When you’re depressed, you can be fatigued, irritable, and unable to function at times. You may not fuel your body the best, may not sleep well, and may not care to let the love of others care for you, even as you cannot manage to care for yourself.

Yet, God has been showing me over the last few years, what a free life can feel like. What beauty comes with taking care of ourselves and the world He’s blessed us with.

So, as I continue to prepare for the dreams He is opening up to reality, I will continue to strive to be a steward of the body He’s entrusted me with; and I will begin to look at ways to be a better steward of the environment – living more intentionally, less cluttered. More sustainably, less selfishly.

I’ll let you know how it goes 🙂