I’m getting restless.
I’m tired of being in Oklahoma.
I’m ready to be somewhere else.
Pack up my new tiny home & hit the road.
Realistically, I’m not in a place to leave yet.
And, lately, that truth has been wearing on my heart.
I know that for my own well-being & health, I can’t make this place my forever home.
But, it’s not time for me to move yet. So, I’m almost regretting the choice to come here in the first place, though there has been so much good being here.
There is a spirit of oppression on this place that feels like it weakens my spirit.
There is so much pressure from inside & out to be what everyone wants me to be. I almost feel stuck in my situation. Like there’s no way out, no opportunity for change. Making me ready to cut ties & run.
This is a good chance for me to learn – that’s not the way the world works.
Please, show me the good that has been done. Reveal the next step in Your plan for me here in this place. Open the right doors & close the rest of them.
Lift the spirit of oppression over my life, destroy any anxiety or depression that would threaten what You have called me to do; destroy any apathy that has made it’s way into my heart.
Soften me, remove the callouses that are developing on my heart.
Open up opportunity for me to use the gifts you’ve given me to bring Glory to You.
May I leave every situation with my integrity intact.
Send me more relationships to sharpen my relationship with You, allowing me to see more hope in the world around me.
Lord, be with this city, this state, and this nation. May any confusion & disillusionment begin to melt away. Soften hearts and turn them towards you.
God, please remove anything that is hindering the purpose you have for me.
And, in this waiting time, may I remember to take care of my soul & refresh my spirit, trusting that what’s on the other side of this waiting is Your best for my life.
I am so thankful for the amazing life I live, a life of beauty even on the hardest days.