Confessions of a 20-something: [sometimes] I still believe the lies

“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old one has gone, the new one has come!” – 2 Cor. 5:17

Ugly


Unlovable


Worthless


Replaceable.


And the worst of all:

Invisible


These are lies the enemy spent 14+ years convincing me to believe. By the end of that time, it wasn’t just outside voices, I heard these lies in my own voice as well.

Now, I know these are lies. Now, I even know and proclaim the truth:

I Am:

Beautiful – Ecclesiastes 3:11; Psalm 45:11; Psalm 139:14

Lovable – Romans 8:38-39; 1 John 3:1

Valued – Eph. 1:11, Gen 1:27


Irreplaceable – Eph. 2:10

Seen – Gen 1:31, Psalm 8:4-5

And so much more…

But, I confess, some days it still seems easier to believe the lies. The lies that I spent so long accepting. The identity I so easily claimed as my own.

14+ years of emotional abuse in the home, bullying in school, and a battle with depression had me believing I was someone which I really wasn’t.

Now, though, I know who I am. I know I have a beautiful identity in Christ.

But, when I have though days, or life gets stressful (which happens often), the lies try to sneak back in.

When someone corners me or points out my negative qualities, I flash back into that role of the unloved, invisible one.

It’s not me. And, one day I hope to not have this be my confession, but for now, I confess: [sometimes] I still believe the lies.

@Ally Spots is hosting “Confessions of a 20-something” a group of 20-somethings confessing and sharing. Check them all out here.

*This piece is also the first of a short series I am doing about identity. I do hope you will join me and discover your God-given identity.

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